<body> Wads Love , hu noes? God lyk love?
The LoneR

-Me.
-14
-student
-loner
-like to listen to chinese music.
-child of God
Abt me ^^:Hw does love feels lyk? why the same kind of feeling i had fer them... is it a fake? i dun care nw , i hv a new feelin felt n im nt cfm its love n exception to tis one its different frm b4 an new unique feelin of sweet bt shy feelings wad does tht mean... ppl sae im lovestruck true?

Cravings frm heart

-watch channel V Taiwan fer 1 yr
-mre clothes
-attend evry service
-treatments to miie hair (so tht nt so messy)
-HER<3
-SHOP BLOG^^
-SAVE MRE $$

Hates frm heart

-NOBODY(Fergiv n ferget)
-People Criticisin other ppl
-SATAN

Its only been a day

  • November 2007
  • December 2007
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008

    i cant ignore

    Emilyn
    Darren Teo
    cuzin
    Bleach Stuff
    Muai Friendnster
    chu xuan
    Fann Wong
    Kelly Poon
    Hui Xian
    Shawn Tok
    Aaron Ya Lun
    Danson Tang
    Fahrenheit
    Xiao Gui
    Calvin
    Wu Zun
    Xiao Zhu aka Luo zhu ren
    Selina
    Raine Yang
    Jolin Tsai
    Jiro Wang
    Dawn Lee
    Chien Yee
    Jiaman
    BB AQ

    I remember u told me


    MusiC

    i deleted the credits sry see wrg i sux at html code so below ugly....



    • Monday, February 11, 2008


    dint go to sch todae n im so ...under depression miie mentality is gonna break down anytime im breakin dwn cuz of vanessa ....cant take it ANYMRE WTF CB i broke wif Yu yan cuz i found out i still cant fergt vanessa so actually hv to sae sry to her cuz i used her i stead wif her to fergt abt Vanessa Yu yan jie oso sae nvr lyk me b4....BT IT TOTALLY FAILED ....VANESSA INTRUDE MIIE MIND AGAIN WALAO....gonna cry again lerh im lyk listenin to miie fav song on the com n when im postin tis miie tears r droppin *SOBS* im nt cmin to sch till wed guys 2 Eff guys i nid time to calm dwn again dun b shock to see me different in sch on wed *sobs* i feel lyk huggin u nw *sobs*ARRR I WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD WTF CB LA CNT TAKE IT LIAO LA wa wa wa *sobs* depression in in miie life again i cnt take dun tink tis is fake i muz thnk Yu yan oso to b miie*stead* fer i tink 1 wk ler.... n i found out i cnt fergt abt vanessa bt I TOTALLY FKIN HELL DUNNO Y I HV TIS THING BLOCKIN ME TO EVEN LET HER B CLOSE TO MIIE MENTALLITY IS GONNA BREAK DOWN I M GONNA LISTEN TO TIS SONG N CRY FER TIS 2 DAES WA........~ 2 effs wann tell miss cai is ur choice im totally depress n nid some one to tok to WA hw i wish is u vann missin her thing makes me sick fer 2 whole wk lerh rmb 2 effs i've been coughin since awhile lerh wa im keepin frm u guys im actually hurtin inside i started missin her again tis JAn so i got tis bad cough which i dint noe y it cme cuz is lyk nt related i cried almost evry dae since i hv no courage to go in front of u since the first time i told i lurve u last yr i stil tok to u n went lookin fer u 2nd time i totally cnt stand the feelin of bein rejected therefore i hv phobia of confessin or askin fer stead once again *sobs*



    Vanessa though u do nt lyk me , its fine
    Its ur choice in the end , no one cn stop u
    Tis thing is totally nt ur fault , is miie fault fer fallin in love in u
    Which causes me to depress evrydae , depression is nt wad i wanted
    I am ur heat , i giv u warmth evrydae
    i want to b ur guardian angel , since i cant be wif u
    i wanna b ur life long guardian angel , bt i noe thts nt possible
    i wan u to see tht love i hv fer u , bt u do not care
    i wan to die , u still do nt care
    i wan to cry , bt u wil nt care bt laugh
    i wan to make u happi evry dae , bt i dunno hw
    i wan to knw u mre , will u do tht fer me
    i wan to hug u juz once , i noe thts totally impossible
    i wan to invite u to miie bdae party , thts possible bt u would nt turn up
    i wan to b happi , bt thts nt possible as i oni nid u to attend miie bdae party n im happi
    i wan to cut miie wrist again , cn i
    i wanna cry out loud nw , u wouldnt care
    i wil chnge tis blog to a half life half dead blog , u will oni see me sad
    i wil b sad al miie life , im depressin badly
    i wan to tel u , I love u deeply
    i wan to tel u , im totally mental breakdown abt u
    i cnt stand it anymre , i noe i dunno hw to write a poem
    i apologise fer tht , bt tht is totally out of point


    sry guys frm nw on ive decided no mre happi songs n happi stuff in miie blog tis blog is gonna wither into a sad blog im gonna hunger myself wish i die frm starvin , i wanna slash myself pls no one stop me wawawa *sobs*

    there will nw oni b one song in miie heart keep playin over n over again i will b sad fereva i threfore officially pronounced the old happi LOW KANG HAO DEAD
    the song is repeating itself i tot i was dead bt tis song saved me i decided nt to die bt i stil wish to die by starvin or slashin tis song saved me the song dedicated to vanessa bt im saved bt im nt tht old happi LOW KANG HAO im nw a new sad depress n a goner LOW KANG HAO keep playin bah the song dedicated to Vanessa


    花香



    风没有方向的吹来
    雨也跟着悲伤起来
    没有人能告诉我
    爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
    风伴着花谢了又开
    雨把眼泪落向大海
    现在的我才明白
    你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
    记忆是阵阵花香
    我们说好谁都不能忘
    守着黑夜的阳光
    难过却假装坚强
    等待的日子里
    你比我勇敢
    记忆是阵阵花香
    一起走过永远不能忘
    你的温柔是阳光
    把我的未来填满
    提醒我花香常在
    就像我的爱


    风伴着花谢了又开
    雨把眼泪落向大海
    现在的我才明白
    你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
    记忆是阵阵花香
    我们说好谁都不能忘
    守着黑夜的阳光
    难过却假装坚强
    等待的日子里
    你比我勇敢
    记忆是阵阵花香
    一起走过永远不能忘
    你的温柔是阳光
    把我的未来填满
    提醒我花香常在
    就像我的爱

    记忆是阵阵花香
    我们说好谁都不能忘
    守着黑夜的阳光
    难过却假装坚强
    等待的日子里
    你比我勇敢
    记忆是阵阵花香
    一起走过永远不能忘
    你的温柔是阳光
    把我的未来填满
    风吹起花的香味就像你的爱


    tis song is playin in miie heart to keep miie last beat of heart n last breath of air alive tis song is always hummin n playin in miie mid n heart do nt disturb me once the song stops i will b gone u wil nvr ever see me in sch again i will suffer total mental break down thts y i miie title fer miie old blog is tis Depression fills in miie life , it cnt be b replacable by Happiness.... the happi one is dead.............

    +++______Now im singing such a sad song______ ♥